Collected Whimsy
The Mother
The mother spent her whole life on a quest to get more stuff.
Electronics, objects, and trinkets, would it ever be enough?
It started when she was a child; she was the eldest of four.
When the others came along, she just felt she needed more.
There’s an emptiness within her that she hopes her stuff might fill.
And if you’re in the way of that, she’ll crush you with her will.
The mother has married several times to men who did not know.
Until her moods became more frantic, always ending in a row.
Mother used charm to her benefit; friends and acquaintances were beguiled.
The family even supported her when she left her youngest child.
“A mother would never do that,” they’d tell the child with disdain,
The child learned never to reach out. It’s best to hide your pain.
It didn’t start with the mother, though, as the child came to learn.
The cycle began generations before; no bridge they would not burn.
It’s a family filled with takers, those who lie, cheat, and steal.
Darkness lurks within them, and they hurt others with zeal.
The mother victimized herself, telling stories that weren’t true.
She learned to hide the harsh abuse, and no one ever knew.
That child is all grown up now, moving on the best she can.
Even now, she wonders if this was part of God’s great plan.
The child looks in the mirror, feeling pain, but no one can see.
and wonders of the mother, “Does she ever think of me?”
To be the unwanted child is an embarrassment, many claim.
She sees them in her reflection, an heiress to the family name.
Where is that mother now, and did she finally take enough?
For all the damage left behind, all she has is stuff.
I pray in the evening, when the twilight comes,
while the cricket chirps and cicada hums.
Knowing again that the sun will rise,
as God looks upon me from His skies.
The trials of life all melt away,
I’m forgiven for yet another day.
Though my heart is weary and my fate’s unknown,
I’ve never truly walked alone.
Looking for answers both far and wide,
count the times I’ve looked to the heavens and sighed.
It’s all foolishness and stubborn pride,
That has caused this burning pain inside.
To accept His love, so pure and true,
is all that He will ask of you.
for an invitation to where Angels flew,
It’s really not too much to do.
I pray in the morning, where the dawn shines brightly,
and view the beauty that He has shown.
He’s begging our souls to see His light,
for we’ve never truly walked alone.
My mind has turned on me again,
and I don’t know where to go;
I’m drowning, weighed down by these chains,
not reaping what I sow.
I’m scared, because I never know
How long will this go on?
It’s dark as I take blow after blow,
And I’m praying for the dawn.
I know I’ll never understand
How it catches me off guard.
It’s not the life that I had planned,
Every moment seems so hard.
The world is frightening, as I’ve been shown,
and my fears are amplified;
These thoughts I have can’t be my own,
I’m being pulled beneath the tide.
No, this is not the first time
I’ve been brought to my knees by life;
Searching for something pure, sublime,
for a goodness that is rife.
I don’t think I should feel this way,
But perhaps it is God’s will.
To watch my life pass day by day,
As I struggle with this still.
I’ve said too much, yet not enough,
as my hope is turned to doubt;
Trying to keep these feelings rebuffed,
until Jesus works this out.
Lord, I’m asking You to intervene,
This night’s gone on too long.
I’m fighting something I can’t see,
In a world that feels so wrong.
Lord, I’m asking You to take my hand,
and pull me by Your side.
These hurtful flames are being fanned,
and I’ve nowhere left to hide.
Lord, I’m asking You to dry these tears,
I can hold them in no more.
please drown them along with my fears,
like waves against Your shores.
Lord, I’m asking You to guard my heart,
It’s seen too many scars.
these memories are tearing me apart,
and I count them like the stars.
Lord, I ask You, look upon my face,
and use me for Your will.
to lead others to Your grace,
I know you’re with me still.
Lord, I just want to say thank You
for answering my call.
and to tell You that I love You,
as You love us one and all.